I was beyond exhausted last night. Only got one video done, but this morning, I’m already working. Yet, I woke up feeling so empty, and honestly confused. As most of you know, I am shedding skin again. Becoming the next form of Yanni. In this transitional period, I still question myself about if I’m doing the right thing. Then, I realize that things I’m doing are out of my comfort zone, and this creeping doubt is the old me trying to pull myself back to that comfort. It’s a cruel seducer. Comfort, warm. In the days of hunters and gatherers, comfort meant death. Comfort meant you didn’t go on the hunt, and you starved to death. Spiritually, I don’t want to starve to death. I am scared of this, that is just raw honesty. But I am using that fear to push myself into the unknown. Afterall, if you didn’t have fear, you would recklessly run headlong into danger. The fear drives me.

Regardless of its position (upright or reversed) the Queen of Wands symbolizes fertility, and all the feelings, emotions, and aspects that it brings. It may mean that there is someone who needs your help right now. In terms of work, there is a probability that you will encounter obstacles that will hamper your progress. Do not mind these obstacles and continue doing your job as you see fit. To see this card may also be a reminder to adhere to your rational side - to balance your sometimes chaotic energy with clear though, and you will be more successful.

When I read the career portion of the reversed Queen of Scepters (Wands), I notice exactly what is going on. I’m drained. I’m completely drained. Last month stole so much of my energy and creativity. I think it’s time that I just stop and work on myself today, it’s time to ask the questions I need to ask myself. I want to go back and check my friends, who is draining me, and who keeps me spiritually nourished. I also need to look at my spending as well. Am I buying things that I need and keep me nourished spiritually, or are we just consuming? In the career side, I have to figure out why I am unwilling to take on more tasks. We need to just sit back and make sure the pilot light stays on. My body’s gas tank is feeling low.

Literally meaning mouth, it signifies the arrival of divine insight or a message that carries profound meaning. This rune embodies the essence of clear, truthful communication, whether it comes through spoken words, written texts, or intuitive understanding. It is a symbol of wisdom, guidance, and the power of language to inspire and uplift. Ansuz encourages you to listen closely to the messages around you, whether from others, the universe, or your own inner voice, as they may contain the knowledge or inspiration you need to move forward.

This rune represents the flow of wisdom from higher realms, reminding you of the importance of staying open to learning and growth. Truth often has a way of revealing itself when you are receptive and attentive. Words and ideas are powerful, and you must use them wisely and with integrity. Communication is a two-way street; we must listen as much as we speak in order to find the meaning of that which lies under the surface.

You are being invited to engage in honest and meaningful dialogue, seek out and share knowledge, be inspired by the wisdom of those who have come before, and to communicate with clarity and purpose. Aligning with Ansuz provides you the transformative power of truth and the importance of conveying your thoughts and ideas with authenticity and honesty.

The gods have spoken, I am not being honest with myself. I am missing signs around me that things are not okay. The old cliche is true: “We have two ears and one mouth for a reason.” Ansuz is screaming at us to keep our eyes open, encouraging us to keep our mind and heart open. I admit, last month made me a little slack. I will spend more time in nature, spend more time communicating with friends. I will spend more time asking myself for honest communication on how I’m feeling. We slipped last month, it’s not fatal. We’re learning. We’re always learning. If I want to push myself further this winter, I must be honest with myself. I must listen to my body.

I think the roadmap is quite clear today. Listen to yourself. Take stock of yourself. Take stock of your friends. Are they nourishing you spiritually? If not, figure out who drags you down, and cut ties. If it’s your body, listen to it. Do not ignore your vessel. Also, let’s get back in nature for a few minutes. Life is meant to be enjoyed. Be honest, open up, and if you need to lean, lean.